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MFS will be leaving The States tomorrow. Yet, there was a sudden heavy snow in Nevada. In addition, he's not felling well. Good and no so good news for me. All I can do is to pray so that Allah will make the best arrangements for us. Being a single mom isn’t that easy for me. It makes me realize that every kid needs loves and attention from a person called ‘father’. I try to act both (being mom and dad) to them, but I noticed, I failed to do so. I might have strength and perseverance on the first month, but it was progressively diminished as time flown. Besides, the kids sometimes being inconsiderate (how should I put the words in modest way), I myself lose my judgment and deliberation. It was indeed not a fine circumstance to stay longer especially for the grown up kids like ‘em.

 p/s: I noticed that my previous 2 entry was written in Malay. My friend telling me that 'hang dah makan dalam kot buat research paper'..Ehehe.. Well yea, memang makan dalam pun. Since sy ni tak bape pandai Bahasa Inggeris and I have a very poor vocab, it took me ages to put words in a proper sentences. So bila nak tulis blog, I felt like really tired to find English words. Why must I write in English? I did this blog on purpose. Few reasons on the list. To be frank the top reason was to improve my English writing skills and widen my vocab. So guys, don't get me wrong.

 

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Baru balik dari register standard 1 untuk anak sulung. Melangkah masuk sekolah dengan mata berkaca, penuh rasa sebak dan doa tak putus-putus. Semoga akhlak Syifa Az Zahra sentiasa terpelihara di sekolah baru ini, menjadi muslimah yang hebat, berjaya dunia akhirat. Keluar dari pagar sekolah, masih teruskan niat, tapi air mata tak dapat bendung lagi. Berderai dalam kereta..:)

Haishh..itu belum hari pertama sekolah darjah 1.

Dah 6 tahun mama besarkan Syifa

In the spotlight

Kids, please stay healthy. I pray for both of you to recover soon and also pray so that Allah will forgive all my sins.

These are all the latest pics collection of them. Someone was strongly missing them.

Kakak batuk yang sangat teruk hanya waktu malam. Hampir dua per tiga tidur malamnya diisi dengan batuk berkahak tanpa henti. I'm glad to have my mum who sleep beside her, monitor and calm her down while she was having her very bad cough. Rasanya malam semalam opah hanya dapat tidur nyenyak 2 jam. Risau sangat cucunya tak selesa. Ada je yg opah akan buat untuk kurangkan batuk. However, no matter how less sleep she has, opah akan tetap bangun seawal pukul 5.30 pagi, terus mandi dan solat subuh. Unlike anak pompuan dia ni, seboleh-boleh nak curi masa qada balik kekurangan tidur. Hmm...

Adik pulak dah disahkan Doctor menghidap hand foot and mouth disease. Anak-anak saya dah pernah kena penyakit ni. So dah boleh expect dah, how was the situation I'm going to face dengan adik nanti. Dalam pada tengah menulis entry ni, 2 kali terhenti sebab adik nangis. I am fully prepared for next stages.

Ada juga beberapa orang yang bagi macam-masam andaian berkaitan kenapa anak-anak boleh terjebak dengan sakit ni. Typical assumptions adalah seperti cuaca tak elok, memang musim orang tak sihat, berjangkit dari taska dan sebaginya. From my point of view, besides not rejected all the assumptions, sy rasa ada kaitan dengan perkara yang berlaku last week. Last week saya jadi 'singa jadian' dekat budak-budak ni disebabkan perkara-perkara yang saya tak suka. Mungkin Allah nak balas there and then apa yang saya dah buat kat anak-anak ni.

Muhasabah..